Why am I here?
After many years of chasing my tail, I had what could only be called a divine moment, when I saw all that I had become. I looked at every aspect of my life – for the first time, I took a proper look at myself in my personal mirror.
It was truly painful.
I had stopped and found I had this time to see who I was, and that shock of self-realisation was to change my life’s work forever. In that moment, I felt all my mistakes and saw all my weaknesses. I cried so, so much, but in those tears I heard something so beautiful that it turned my world around.
I heard this. “My dear, beautiful child, you are so blessed to be feeling all these pains. How could we ever help you if you had simply turned away from facing the challenges and tests you chose to conquer before you came into this world? You, my dear soul, have begun your spiritual journey and we are joyful for you.
Can you imagine the suffering many souls will bear because they never recognise anything, and simply continue on until they move to the light? Then they say: ‘Oh … I never stopped to look at me, or see what my actions caused to others,’ and back they come. So, smile today for you have come to your knowing and you truly have the lion in you now. This is your divine moment.”
Suddenly, my heart grew stronger and stronger. I smiled at this amazing message of deep understanding and lifted myself up. Had I truly come to a new path – perhaps one which might be so scary? Could I do this? I wondered for a moment and then made a commitment: I would give it a go. Wiping the tears from my eyes, I agreed at that moment never to turn away from my truth. I would see my actions and if I ever caused pain to others, I would recognise and learn from those moments. I would try to see, feel and heal all my weaknesses in order to become the person who can look into his mirror and, with his hand on his heart, say: ‘I truly did my best.’
Today I stand before you, a soul like any other, who loves and cares with all his heart and who makes mistakes every day – but … I have a new energy. I don’t take my mistakes personally any more – they are simply my challenges and tests.
They help me towards achieving a deeper and more spiritual understanding so I can help this world heal and become what we always were: oneness and love.
Healer of hearts.